Mo ship

So hello~ had finished my ho ship somewhere in november..been floating in ed then after..am currently in PDN.been here since past 2 months.life isnt as hectic as ho ship..believe it or not am missing the hectic-ness...am gaining crazy weight in pdn..work is sedentary..honestly am often having this feeling of rotting away.sometimes i do feel like its a waste of gaining knowledge all this while.but hmmm Allah knows better.there must be a reason for everything.His plan is always the best. But sometimes couldnt help feeling down n stupid.while the rest of my friends are in hospitals n kk managing people here i am going to mobiles n such..not saying this job is not important.is it..VerY!!!!! But...i dont want to be the stupid n clueless one.i envy HOs...at least they r learning..hmmm manusia x prnh bersyukur.Astaghfirullah